Tuesday, January 10, 2012

Tomorrow's The Day!

So I take my second set of national boards tomorrow. EEEK!!! I spent my Christmas break studying like a mad woman. I have watched a total of 75 hours of lectures and done thousands of practice questions. I feel prepared. The past few days have been stressful though with times filled with doubt. A huge test plus pregnancy hormones= tears.

One thing that keeps me hopeful is that God knew about this test well before I even knew I was going to med school. He has gotten me this far in my journey to becoming a physician, so I have faith that I am going to do great.

This past Sunday at church the sermon was on John 8: 12-20. It was just the message I was needing to hear in the time of doubt right now. "I am the light of the world." The preacher answered three questions and one of them was "What does the light of the world do?" He talked about how God brings light into the darkness. He brings hope when there is hopeless and brings light when there is doubt. With huge tests like this, I tend to doubt myself and all of the time I have spent preparing. After hearing this message, it gave me a calmness. Told me that I can give this test to God as he is in control. It also helped me to realize not to place my hope and identity in a test or school.

I strongly believe God's plan for me is to be a physician and to help those that are sick. As long as I continue to follow Him and trust Him, then I will get there. If you wouldn't mind just say a short prayer for me to keep me calm tomorrow during this 8 hour exam. Thanks!

1 comment:

  1. I am so moved by your faith, you clearly have a special calling and I know you will do brilliantly. I will say a prayer!